Pain and Music

I'm in love with an artist named Emilie Autumn. So, i'm going to do something I usually wouldn't do. Post two songs, along with what I see as the meaning behind my favorite phrases in each song (I'm not picking apart the entire song, you can see the meaning in it yourself by listening to it! Yup, the titles are linked to YouTube). Yeah, here comes a long post. First i'll please your eyes with pictures of the gorgeous singer / violinist I am about to decipher and put on a pedestal.





Opheliac [ noun- an abnormal obsession towards a person ]
I'm your Opheliac
I've been so disillusioned
I know you'd take me back
But still I feign confusion
I couldn't be your friend
My world was too unstable
You might have seen the end

But you were never able
To keep me breathing
As the water rises up again
Before I slip away

You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way [ seems to me she needs things to go her own way; is obsessed with it always going exactly as planned ]
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay [ attempt to control loved one by unreasonable means ]
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when [ jealousy ]
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you [ blame ]
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
It's the Opheliac in me [ regret, saying please forgive me, it's just how I am ]

I'm your Opheliac
My stockings prove my virtues
I'm open to attack
But I don't want to hurt you
Whether I swim or sink
That's no concern of yours now
How could you possibly think
You had the power to know how
To keep me breathing
As the water rises up again
Before I slip away

You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
It's the Opheliac in me

Studies show:
Intelligent girls are more depressed
Because they know
What the world is really like
Don't think for a beat it makes it better
When you sit her down and tell her
Everything gonna be all right
She knows in society she either is
A devil or an angel with no in between
She speaks in the third person
So she can forget that she's me

Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt
Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt I love

You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
It's the Opheliac in me


Gothic Lolita
How old are you?
I'm older than you'll ever be
I've been dead a thousand years
And lived only two or three
I don't mind telling you
My life was ended by your hand
The kind of murder where nobody dies
But I don't suppose you'd understand
(Call off the search
We've found her)

If I am Lolita
Then you are a criminal
And you should be killed
By an army of little girls
The law won't arrest you
The world won't detest you
You never did anything
Any man wouldn't do
I'm Gothic Lolita
And you are a criminal
I'm not even legal
I'm just a dead little girl
But ruffles and laces
And candy sweet faces
Directed your furtive hand
I perfectly understand
So it's my fault?
No, Gothic Lolita

Thank you, kind sirs
You've made me what I am today [ if you read the beginning, you would see that she talked about being molested when she was younger- "murder where nobody dies" ]
A bundle of broken nerves
A mouthful of words
I'm still afraid to say [ impossible to admit; shameful secret ]
I don't mind telling you
Now that I'm old enough to love
I couldn't begin to even if
My pretty life depended on it [ you ruined my ability to trust, to love ]
And funny thing, it does [ how do you feel now? ]
(Call off the search
We've found her)

If I am Lolita
Then you are a criminal
And you should be killed
By an army of little girls
The law won't arrest you
The world won't detest you
You never did anything
Any man wouldn't do
I'm Gothic Lolita
And you are a criminal
I'm not even legal
I'm just a dead little girl
But ruffles and laces
And candy sweet faces
Directed your furtive hand
I perfectly understand
So it's my fault?
No, Gothic Lolita

I am your sugar
I am your cream
I am your anti-American dream

I am your sugar
I am your cream
I am your worst nightmare
Now scream

If I am Lolita
Then you are a criminal
And you should be killed
By an army of little girls
The law won't arrest you
The world won't detest you
You never did anything
Any man wouldn't do
I'm Gothic Lolita
And you are a criminal
I'm not even legal
I'm just a dead little girl
But ruffles and laces
And candy sweet faces
Directed your furtive hand
I perfectly understand
So it's my fault?
No, Gothic Lolita



So, beyond the amazing violin music and entrancing vocal effects that leave me drooling for music by her, the lyrics of Gothic Lolita speak of a deep, meaningful, significant, and shameful time in Emilie's life; and Opheliac (some say it's based off of Hamlet) is about obsession for a cause, hurting out of love, guilt over caring. Such a beautiful girl, with amazing talent. I would kill to see her live, I would probably die if I got to meet her. I can't imagine how deep she must be to scribe such brilliant lyrics.

And now, since I have been getting a few comments and more viewers, i'll start posing questions! For one, have you heard of this singer? Or are you particularly fond of one artist or another? And yes, Rap counts as music! Although I, personally, listen to very little.